My words and your words have the power to kill or to give life. I have been convicted by the words that I utter.
Today I am letting down my guard.
I am being honest with you.
I have said careless words to hurt people through out my life.
I look back in my mind and I see the pain in their faces that it brought to these people.
I have learned is You cannot get the hurtful words back. I have said things in the heat of the moment. I felt that they were needed to be said.
I will call this highschool friend Agnus. (name is changed)
Agnus came to call on me in the morning and walk with me to the bus stop. I was definately not a morning person. Anything said to me first thing in the morning would be taken to heart. I had enough of people's teasing. One time in a note I spouted off and asked the person not to call for me in the morning. I know I hurt Agnus' feelings. I never got a chance to explain. I had gone too far. I never forgot my careless words.
I have struggled with being careful in what I say. I have had strained friendships. It has been really hard to live this down. We learn from our careless words and mistakes.
I have healed of my hurts. I have confessed my careless words to God and I know God has forgiven me. I still struggle and I still say words I wished I hadn't said.
1 John 1:9 If we confess our sins he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
I have learned the importance of when something bothers me not to stuff down what is bothering me. When I have been shaken up enough inside I will explode.
I have learned the importance of being honest at how I am feeling. I feel sad when/... I didn't fell comfortable... I am hurt when I hear the words,as opposed to saying words carelessly, You no good, You did this to me, You are nothing but a ...!
I have learnd I am responsible for how I respond to others not how they respond to my honesty.
This is my prayer daily may the meditations of my mouth and the meditations of my heart be acceptable in your sight oh Lord.