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Mother Mugs was established May 2008 Author : Over whelmed by God's Grace Uncovering the Truth about Adoption


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Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Straight from My Heart A Check up.

Straight from My Heart  A Check up
Sometimes I get so busy that I forget to sit down and listen to what God has to say to me. I have been honest and frank.. A lot of my thoughts are pretty raw and it shows the real me.  Maybe you can relate.
I hear testimonies of how God is working in their life and I wonder if they are who they say they are , I wonder if God is truly authentic. Celebrities seem to be perky on the television but what are they like  at home and when  no one is looking?
How come these people are getting all the attention?

A friend of mine said something very profound. It probrally took them a while to be where they are  today. \being a  celebrity didn't come automatically. They still have their days.

I have to admit that I am judgmental when I listen to stories of success   I ask  myself was I truly listening to their story and God's voice or to the enemies lies.

I would love to be on Television and I would like to see my writing to be promoted and for people to take notice .  How come they to do this and I do not.    I fell into this pity party trap.

As I was writing I heard  God speak into my heart in his still small voice  that God is  the one who promotes you.  S eek God first and  have him to promote you.  Don't let the world or the church promote you but let God promote you.

God is the one who builds us up.

I guess sometimes I fall into the trap that people only see my limitations . In side my heart  I wonder  if people will see Jesus.  My focus is not on Jesus  but on myself. What others think of me is their opinion and it is only a opinion.

I  am sometimes not focused on  what the   Holy Spirit is speaking into my life. . I need to listen and  depend on the Holy Spirit 24/7 . I want Jesus to permeate his love and his light,to  radiate in me so that people will know I am in touch with Jesus all the time. 

This months devotional I am reading on is about adversity and I have to admit I am not really excited about it.
As I write in my journal I hear the small soft voice from the  Holy Spirit It's God's word. God's word is truth. Ask me to speak to you and I will speak through my word. 

 I realize I need  Gods correction in my heart big time.
I need to rest and listen to God's voice and slow down.

Jesus I commit to listening to your Holy Spirit on a regular basis for everything.
I commit to reading your word dilgently.
I am going to complain less and pray more.

I remember who I am ! in Christ and I ask Jesus for you to promote me and not myself,

Tuesday, April 17, 2012

How Mother of Writing Came to Be

Mother  of Writing

Mother of Writing came to be when I started my business Mother Mugs Baskets and Sewing 4 years ago.  I put together all occasion baskets and I put  my sewing projects in them .  I make bibs and blankets and quilts and PJ's along with shoppping bags as well.

I have always liked writing, During a stressful time in our marriage  12 years ago  I shut down inside.  I  didn't want to talk to anyone and I didn't want to go anywhere.  We were struggling financially and we were not communicating in our marriage.   Writing helped me to open up and let the hurt out and allow Jesus to heal me.

While  staying at  my childhood home I began to writing on mom's life.  I self-published it and I was encouraged by a friend to write about my life and about growing up in a Adoptive Home. Writing has become an outlet for me when I needed to get my emotions out whether they are good emotions and negative emotions.  During this time I have delved into God's word and  God speaks to me and I have grown closer to Jesus.

Writing has helped me heal and has strengthen my relationship with Jesus.

I am currently writing a  second book entitled Straight from My Heart.
I am not in any hurray of publishing my second book as I enjoy writing and need to sell my first book entitled Overwhelmed By God's Grace, Uncovering the Truth about Adoption.

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

Mouse Unrest, Resting in Jesus

Matthew 11:28-30
Come to me all you labor and heavy laden and I will give you rest.
Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart and you shall find rest to your souls
For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.

Last Tuesday I was thinking about this verse.  I was thinking about the rest God gives to us when we are weighed down with burdens.  Unknown to me I was carrying burdens but hadn't dealt with them.

I  had come up stairs for something and there was a cute mouse on my Kitchen counter .  The cut mouse idea wore off and  I  screamed and freaked out. I grabbed the cutting board and I whacked it several times. I dumped the mouse in my garden out front.  I was glad to get rid of the little rodent.  How dare this mouse inhabit my kitchen counter

I began to shake . I had just killed a mouse.  I called several people to tell them what I had done.

I started to cry.  The issues of missing my mom came up.  I wouldn't wish mom back. but I was missing mom.  Mom passed away 6 years ago in May.  I wanted to talk to mom and tell her all that I was doing and what was going on.   

I was also upset about the mouse and wondered if there might be a few otherones.  It turns out the neighbors had the family across the street from us.  I found it hard to sleep that night. 

After a few hours of not sleeping I said Jesus I give you my grief.  I will trust you to comfort me.  I will trust you.  You are here for me and I know you are trustworthy.   I started out saying I trust God because  Jesus has all authority.  I will trust God as Jesus is beautiful.  I will trust God as Jesus is my comfort.  I will trust God because Jesus is dependable.  
As I did this  I  sensed the presence of the Holy Spirit in my heart and I was able to relax and sleep.

I still am looking around corners for mice but haven't seen any and I hope not to.

By the way if any of you are wondering I threw out the cutting board.
We cleaned the kitchen counter. 

The next morning I had Maurice dispose of it and he couldn't find the mouse. I was hoping I wouldn't have to see the mouse again.  So I went out and yes the mouse was dead.

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

Straight From My Heart

! ! Peter 3:8-9  MSG  Message version (not MSG in your food)

 Be agreeable, be sympathetic, be loving, be compassionate, be humble. That goes for all of you, no exceptions. No retalitation. No sharp-tongued - sarcasm. Instead, bless --- that's your job, to bless. You'll be a blessing also get a blessing.

Bless those who curse you and despitefully use you.
 (Matthew 5:44)

I don't konw about you but I have to surrender myself to God to be agreeable. There are times I  disagree  for the sake of disagreement. I  also have the urge to be right and prove my point.  Then there are times I


Friday, March 16, 2012

Shake ups

Shake ups are often sent by God himself.
 When it is time for eaglets to leave the nest and learn to fly, it is said that a mother eagle takes out all the soft bedding and shakes up the nest until it is no longer comfortable for her chicks. She then spreads her wings to catch them as they learn to fly . Deuteronomy 32:11

I have a number of shake ups in my life. These shake ups can be distressing at times. Recently I realized that God wanted me to move on out of the nest and leave the nest  and spread my wings and fly once more.

I have had a lot of issues that I have been dealing with for the last couple of years. After writing my book God spoke and said  It was time to set my issues aside and move on to minister to others.  I had healed enough now to move forward  and  move out of the nest.

 Sometimes when there is a stir  in a persons life the ones you love are not ready or think you are ready to see you leave the nest. The enemy puts doubts into your mind about whether you are ok to move forward and reminds you of your past mistakes like anger. Or that you are not qualified or a professional.  I had doubts of my own about my health, I have come to realize that the Joy of the Lord is my strength.  God is showing when to rest and when to back off.  He assures me of his presence  and help when my health has the odd struggle.

Not that we are competent in ourselves to  claim anything for ourselves, but our competence comes from God. He has made us competent as minsiter of a new covenant not of the letter but of the Spirit, for the letter kills but the Spirit gives life.
 2 Corinthians 3:5, 6

It was time to seek God's counsel and rely on the Holy Spirit to guide me.  God will show me what he wants me to do.  It was time to take the advice I had been given and start ministering to others who are hurting and reach out to those who are in need and  are in need of  Jesus .

It was time to learn to fly again after being hurt. In the nesting time I was nurtured and cared for and now It was time to fly.  The Lord was clearing out the safe place and was nudging me forward.  I heard the Holy Spirit say You are strong, You are courageous. I am with you.  I have forgiven you and I am right there to catch you when you fall or fail.

 I am minstering to people all over the world thru a prayer ministry. I am ministering to friends and family.

I am where God wants me to be right now. Helping others and minstering to others and  giving  Hope and  encouragement and Peace for those who need it.

I move forward because I know that God has his eye on me. I am the apple of his eye.

It was after this shake up that I experienced the mighty power of God in my life. I have seen him  move in the hearts and lives of those I minister to. It has brought me to pray on behalf of those needs and  to see the hand of God in their life.

Deuteronomy 32:10
In a desert land he found him in a barren and howling land. He shielded him and cared for him as the apple of his eye.

Deuteronomy 32:11 lie an eagel that sitrs up it next and hovers over its young. that spread it wings to catch and carries them on it pinions.
Psalms 17:8   

 Keep me as the apple of your eye, hide me in the shadow of your wings

! So when you go thru a shaking in your life or distress. Remember that God is working things out even when it doesn't seem like it.  It is also may mean that God has a mighty work that he wants to do in and thru you on behalf of others. .

Friday, February 24, 2012

Straight from My Heart - Jesus loves me

I am so glad that Jesus loves me Jesus loves me, Jesus loves me, I am so glad that Jesus loves me, Jesus loves even me.

Jesus loves me this I know for the Bible tells me so. Yes Jesus loves me.

 The message is big in meaning and powerful. 

What shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famile or nakedness or danger or sword?

 vs. 36 As it is written nothing "For your sake we face death all day long; we are considered as sheep to be slaughter.

No in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us

vs 38 I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,'neither anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love God that is in Chrsit Jesus our Lord.

I remember in Sunday School singing about Jesus loving me.  It gave me a warmth inside of my heart.  When I did something wrong I remember I wondered if my parents or God loved me. I remember one time I thought I would throw some water on my dad who was sitting on a chair reading.  I however didn't realize that dad was reading his Bible.  I got water spilled all over his Bible. I didn't mean to get his Bible wet on purpose.  I told dad I was truly sorry and all I got was silence. I tried again and once more no response.
It took quite a while until my dad talked to me again.  At that moment I felt distance from my dad.  I so wanted to climb up on my dads lap and have him reassure me that he loved me regardless of whether I had made a mess of his Bible or not.  I knew what it was to hear dad say he loved me and I longed for him to reassure me again.

This hurt affected me for a very long time. I wanted to earn my dads love and approval when I did wrong.  I took this hurt into my marriage and how I interacted with people.  I would pull away.

This is what I have learned. My dad loved me very much but Dads love for me was human love.  I knew Dad would anything to show he loved me.  Dad's love for me  was not perfect and he failed and made mistakes. 

I learned that God's love for me is perfect.
 God's love is unconditional.  I don't have to earn God's love and approval. 

God loved me so much that he gave his only Son, that whosever believes in him should not perish but have everlasting life. 

For God did not send the his Son into the world to condemn the word, but to save the world through his Son.

 John 3:16,17

1 John 1:9 If we confess our sin he is faithful and just to forgive us and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. 

Great news I can ! you can come to Jesus and when we confess with our mouths our sin, God is always faithful and does it quickly to forgive us and to cleanse us. He doesn't hold it against us.

Friends nothing can separate us from the love of Jesus when we come to him. Wow.

Saturday, February 18, 2012

Straight from my Heart

Today was a very delightful day.

My husband and I went to Simcoe Ontario.  I would be remiss if I didn't include that Pedro our doggy went with us.

 Simcoe Ontario is only a hour and a half from Kitchener Ontario.  We stayed over night. This morning Pedro unzippered his kennel and announce woof at 4:30 that he had sprung out of his bed.  So we reassaured him and he went out.
After a few cuddled he went back to bed.  I had  a great night sleep.  I also am on meds for a bad tooth.

This morning I went to a conference where Sharon Jaynes was speaking.  Wow what a day it was. The theme was How to be Spiritually Beautiful.  The music was awesome and the Presence of the Holy Spirit was felt around me and in me personally.

As some of you know I struggled with a lot of back pain and my knees give out. I was questioning and wondering whether my legs would keep me up.
I don't normally go solo on my own to a Retreat.  I am not able to sit or stand for any length of time.  I don't like going on my own without sometime for support if I lose my balance. 

Last week in the devotions from Trusting God I read about speaking to our mountains and telling them how Big God is !  So I said God my mountain is my walking and being sensitive to weather changes.  I wondered about going to where I have never been before. 

For me I need to know about the seats, the steps and where the washrooms are.

Today was different for me. I came into the church without my cane.  I walked in confidently. I sat down and introduced myself to others around me.

What was the difference. My husband and  I prayed for the day and that Lord would help me to be confident . I made up my mind that I belonged at the conference  as I was reminded by God that I was a child of the King of Kings. I also decided to go and trust the Lord.  This was a stretch for me as yesterday my legs were weak off and on all day!

Today I learned once more about letting people off the hook.  I had to free myself.  I wrote down names and chose to forgive those people.  I learned about keeping my thoughts captive and speaking the Truth out to the Adversary.

Friends God helped me. I listened to the truth of Whose I am in Christ.  I listened and trusted God !  God is trustworthy. God did what he promised to me. He would never leave me or forsake me.

Proverbs 3:5,6 Trust in the Lord with all thy heart lean not unto thy own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him and he shall direct his paths!


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